yes, it's like this
It's like this: getting up, going to the baker's, buying a chocolate croisant for breakfast, walking around the medieval town I live in, window shopping, taking the train, speaking and learning French, meeting really kind and interesting people. But some days it's the random person who tells me people who support a smoking ban are the next thing to Nazis, being incapable of communicating my ideas in the ways I'm used to, and seemingly endless paperwork, none of which seems to end or go anywhere.
I know I'm lucky to have this chance, but some days it is harder to love it, that's all.
I know I'm lucky to have this chance, but some days it is harder to love it, that's all.
posted by eireann at 9:18 AM
6 Comments:
I know just what you mean. It's like that for me in Tokyo, too. I am grateful to be having the experience, but some days it just feels like so much effort.
Life is a mixed bag, isn't it? Being fortunate to have something, a thing, an experience, whatever, doesn't mean that something is always enjoyable. Sometimes we just want what's familiar rather than what's fabulous. Enjoy the moments you can as much as you can and forgive yourself the moments when you'd prefer to wrap yourself up in the familiar.
Be well.
don't you think it's hard sometimes when you are in a place/experience/etc, and you know you are "supposed" to be loving it and happy, but at the moment you just aren't feeling that way? You realize that happiness and comfort are much more than surroundings.
Be well. and take care.
Hopefully the hard stuff will fade from your memory leaving only the distilled goodness of your time there. In the meantime, maybe a chocolate eclair?
I know the feeling, lived in Paris for some months some years ago. Missing Sweden, missing my husband and my cats. And now I wish I had enjoyed myself more when I was there, I was enjoying it, but was homesick at the same time. And hated all the meaningless paperwork needed for everything. Even for just going to the gym. And all the people that used my office as a room for smoking during breaks. Unbeleivable.
Totally normal. I feel that way just living my regular life in Nebraska...I've got everything a person should want, plus the chance to make my writing my profession. And some days I wish I could just get up and go to work and make money like a normal person does.
Fortunately, a bag of peanut butter M&Ms sets me right. My advice is to get enough sleep and breathe through it.
{hugs}
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