Tuesday, August 1

ausgang

I've had this dress since I was three. It's one of those hangers-on, a thing I can't get rid of. But now that I'm moving so far away, I have to consider what I really need, and what is sentimental but unnecessary. So today it went into the giveaway bag, and hey. It's all right. (The picture above it, on the other hand, is a New Yorker cover from my birthday in 1982. It shows a girl with a present standing at a door. My dad and mom framed it and I've always had it hanging somewhere. It won't be leaving anytime soon.)

Outgoing. Outgoing. I've been thinking a lot about that lately. So much of me is headed off into the wide world and once it's there, that's that.

But no melancholy, now. It's raining, has been raining all day, and after so many days of heat this is just right. I sent off my package for the Vintage Button Swap that Sally is holding, and walked all over campus through the rain. I finally have stopped feeling like a college student--after having been one, or sort of one, for seven years. It's strange.

I want to talk about poetry.

I've been reading a lot lately. Finally paid my dues to the library and brought home many books--junk books, heavy books, fiction, non-fiction, poetry. And four cds of piano concertos, ├ętudes, nocturnes. Feels a little like the beginning of a hibernation. Beginning of something new. Some ether, to steal from Nick Flynn.

It must be the rain that is doing this to me. I'm as disjointed as it is, just letting things fall where they may.

Also outgoing [exact measurements on request]:

brocade (A piece of Japanese brocade, about 18" x 24"; $8, postage in.)

Email me at ohbara [at] gmail [dot] com if you're interested in a departure with expected arrival at your house.

Now back to the rain, looking at it, etc.

9 Comments:

Blogger lisa s said...

i'd like to talk poetry too - b/c i really know nothing about it....

funny you are thinking outgoing - i've been thinking about that amongst other things too....

9:52 PM  
Anonymous Maitreya said...

Emailed you about the sheet!

10:35 PM  
Anonymous Alicia P. said...

Feels so good to get it outgoing, no?

11:15 PM  
Blogger molly said...

simplifying is so healthy. feels good. i drew your name for some of the fabric I was giving away...check it out and let me know which one you'd like, as well as your mail add, when you get the chance....

7:28 AM  
Anonymous lisa said...

ah, the joys of letting go of things we love.

11:34 AM  
Blogger Toni said...

i was thinking about that dress, and wondered--maybe one box of sentimental things could be stored at your parents house (are they near by?) One day , you might be glad you held onto just a few special things--just thinking :)

12:42 PM  
Blogger eireann said...

toni--my mom came over today and took it out of the savers bag! she had read my blog and didn't want it to go. so yes. it's going in the box(es) of 'save' stuff. :)

lisa s.--i always want to talk about it! but it doesn't make for such good visuals, you know? not like skirts, bunnies, etc.

thank you all for the comments!

5:07 PM  
Anonymous melanie said...

I was going to say that maybe you could donate that dress to a little girl that is close to you if you have one. But now I am happy to see that the dress has been saved by your mother.

I too have been paring down and simplifying lately. It isn't easy but it is necessary once in a while.

8:14 PM  
Anonymous Linda said...

Oh, the dress is lovely. I think you will be glad later that your mom saved it. Although I know too the freeing feeling of clearing things out, which I am constantly doing. My poor children will be lucky if they inherit anything old and sentimental from me.

It's always nice to read that other respectable people run up fines at the library. Who are you reading?

12:22 PM  

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